February 28, 2010

In my February 6, 2010 entry, I wrote about a vision I had of me stepping into a boat while I held onto Jesus' hand to steady me. I did not see His face, but there was never a question of who's hand was holding tightly onto mine so I would not fall into the water. I commented on my self reflection that I felt I was not as far along in faith as I once thought. Instead of preparing to step out onto the water as Peter did, I was merely just starting out by getting into the boat.

I was reminded of this vision as I talked to my mom on the phone today. Maybe God gave this vision to me earlier this month to prepare me for the news I just received last week. I thought I had some of this battle figured out. Turns out, what I have been through so far may have been to prepare me for the boat ride.

Over the last 4 1/2 years, God has given me many words and scriptures pertaining to Life. My Life. It seems fitting that the enemy would chose to now attack my liver doesn't it? Seeing as how LIVE is the main word in liver. Well, I am not a "DIE- er". I am a "LIVE-er". This is an attack on the "liver" inside of me. Well, I've got God on my side. I've got my hand in His. I think I just got into the boat....

Listen to Your Hands by JJ Heller

Lyrics to Your Hands

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when...

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave...
I never leave Your hands

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