March 10, 2008
Over the weekend, I was really thinking about something. If someone asked me why I believe the way I do, what would I say? Just about everything I know is because someone at some point taught it to me. The color blue is the color blue and I have never questioned it. In the United States, we drive on the right side of the road... that is just how it's done. The alphabet, numbers... these are all things that we use everyday and I know it because someone told me. However, no one ever taught me how to laugh or smile or cry. No matter where you go in the world, these things are all spoken in the same language, and we were all born capable. Different experiences have made me laugh or cry, but no one had to show me how. It is the same thing with breathing. We all know we need air to survive, but it was something we were all born doing. I know stories about Jesus Christ because someone either taught them to me or I read about Him in the Bible, and it does take some measure of faith to believe. However, for me, it is so much more than religion. There is just something in me that needs Him in my life. It's like air. Any relationship will suffer if you do not put effort into it. If I did not talk to my husband or acknowledge that he was there, we would grow apart. If I do not seek God out, or talk to Him everyday, my relationship with Him will also suffer. I posted the lyrics to a song by Avalon while back, and I wanted to post them again. My love for my Savior is everything to me. I don't know why He loves me the way He does, but I can feel it. I am not taking someone else's word for it. No one had to teach it to me. It is something I cannot live without.
Health update:
I was supposed to go for a blood transfusion on Friday. Our area got hit with so much snow on Friday and Saturday that it was unsafe to go out. (We got right around 20 inches of snow in about 24 hours). It was not an emergency for me to get blood, so I talked with the hospital and decided to wait until Monday to have my blood retaken. If my counts are still low, I will still need to get blood. God seemed to work it all out for me.