September 28, 2007
I apologize that it has been a few days since I last updated. We were having problems with our computer again so I could not access my emails, or my website program. It's up and running again so I will share what the most recent news is.
I knew that Monday would be a day for decisions to be made. I really prayed that God would give me direction and discernment to know how what He is saying ties in with the doctors. The experience I had at my oncologist's office on Monday was unusual. I felt very confused there and I felt everything was so rushed. That did not sit easy with me. She did not put fear in me, and I know that was God keeping peace in me. But I also know that God is not the author of confusion, so I knew that was not Him. I believe that Satan was trying to make me feel hopeless, and God turned it around to work it for good. I believe God knew that had to happen in order to move me.
I called the Cancer Treatment Centers of America in Zion, Illinois on Monday night. I went to an "Our Journey of Hope" seminar a few months back so I had some previous knowledge of how they operate. They combine a faith based ministry with the latest cancer fighting medicines. Several other people have mentioned that I should check this place out, and so it was confirmation to me that I made the right decision in calling.
Mike and I are flying out on Monday, October 1. The center pays for us to fly, and will pick us up at the airport to take us to our hotel. The first 5 days that we are there are considered an evaluation period. Since I have been through treatment before, they want to make sure that the rest of my body is healthy. Their approach is different because they attack cancer from all levels. Our plane is tentatively scheduled to bring us home the following Tuesday, October 9. I may or may not start treatment while I am out there this time. I am not sure what we will decide.
I feel good about this decision for the fact that I feel like I am following where He leads me. Continue to pray for God's direction. I know He can heal with or without the medicine... that part is not up to me. What is up to me is being obedient.
I can still receive emails while I am there. I will be emailing updates home for my mom to keep posting on the website, so continue to check if you want to know what I am learning.
Jeremiah 31:10-14
10 "Hear the word of the LORD, O
nations;
proclaim it in distant coastlands:
'He who scattered Israel will gather them
and will watch over his flock like a
shepherd.'
11 For the LORD will
ransom Jacob
and redeem them from the hand of those
stronger than they.
12 They will come and
shout for joy on the heights of Zion;
they will rejoice in the bounty of the
LORD—
the grain, the new wine and the oil,
the young of the flocks and herds.
They will be like a well-watered garden,
and they will sorrow no more.
13 Then maidens will dance
and be glad,
young men and old as well.
I will turn their mourning into gladness;
I will give them comfort and joy instead of
sorrow.
14 I will satisfy the
priests with abundance,
and my people will be filled with my
bounty,"
declares the LORD.