November 15, 2009
Well, I am off to CTCA in Chicago bright
and early in the morning. Tomorrow, my mom and I will start out by 7 am eastern
to get there by 1 pm central time. I need to go back and count how many trips we
have actually taken. I used to know off the top of my head, but somewhere along
the way I lost count. I think partly because I am constantly on some type of
chemo, I don't really know how to count how many sessions I have had.
Anyhow, Mike and I went to church this
morning. We have missed the previous 4 weeks due to one or both of us having
some sickness. Fortunately, we are both feeling much better. I have stated
before how much I love the church that God has led us to, so it was nice to be
back. Our associate pastor preached today, and I really like the fact that I
enjoy listening to our pastor and associate pastor equally. Our associate pastor
has really had it on his heart to take a stand against cancer. He has been so
incredibly supportive of me and I feel like he is after this cancer thing just
as fiercely as I am. I need that. His message today had to do, in part, with the
authority Jesus has given us to heal the sick. It is us as Christians, who are
sometimes too passive in accepting this gift, which truly is a gift. I will
continue to pursue it, and with God's help, we will get to that healing!
Before I went to bed tonight, I just really
felt like I needed to spend some time with God. I am having scans tomorrow. A CT
scan and a bone scan, which is typical. A few months back, we had a guest
speaker at our church named Mark DuPont. After he preached, he wanted to pray
for some specific groups of people. Most of the time when people pray for me,
they pray specifically against the cancer. When he prayed, it was different. He
asked for anyone who has problems with their bones to stand up. Since this is
where my cancer has spread into, I stood, as did others. He prayed first
specifically for the leg area. I know that I have been told by doctors a spot
showed in my leg. He then prayed for the spine area. I have been told I have or
have had spots in the cervical spine, thoracic spine, and lumbar spine
(basically, my neck, middle, and lower back). Then he prayed for the hip area
(again, I have been told I have a spot in my left and right hip). Then he prayed
for the pelvis. (you guessed it... I have been told I have a spot there too.) He
did not mention the chest or sternum, and this was good because I believe God
specifically healed this spot already in September of 2007. He prayed for the
bones to regrow and heal.This day has come to mind often since then... I have
just not had the scans yet. Until now...
I am not anxious or worried about the
results. I have a good feeling... I believe God has given me that assurance.
That peace. I prayed as I was getting ready for bed for a scripture specific for
me tonight. I prayed, "Where should I go in Your Word? What do You want me to
know?" Immediately, I thought to look up the next two days date in Chapter and
Verse. The days I will be in Chicago... November 16-17... 11:16-17. But what
book? So I started searching. I came to Job 11:16-17 and knew that was it.
16You will surely forget your
recalling it only as waters gone by.
17 Life will be brighter than
and darkness will become like morning.
So this is the Words of hope I will
carry into tomorrow. I am not going into it with fear.... I am moving
ahead bold and confident.
I know I posted the song
While I'm Waiting
before but I would like to again.... the words go so well with how I am
Also, if you have extra time,
reread my November 7, 2008 entry. I did tonight
and it encouraged me all over again.
I will post my scan results as soon
as I can... hopefully we will be home Tuesday evening and I can post it
here to go back to my updates